mountain of hope

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dear hearts,

On this Dr. Martin Luther King’s day I have a gift for anyone who would like to receive it. I thought about things I have made in the last year and perhaps this creation could somehow be in service towards Dr. King’s vision for all of us truly living together as brothers and sisters.
If you are perplexed, exhausted or stressed out by the inequity and injustice that our world’s current monetary system is propagating, perhaps you would enjoy hearing from the thought leaders lovingly curated and shared in this collection.
Last year I created a web site intending to deepen our relationship with our gifts –energy, time, attention, things and money– and our connection to our world. This series offers material from my 7-year-long investigation into my gifts and expression of them, and ultimately offers many of the thought leaders that contributed to healing my own painful relationship with money. I originally created this site as a gift for a beautiful group of friends all over our world, who believe–as I do–those of us alive right now are part of writing our Earth’s New Story.
It’s called the Gift Ecology Circle and offers a go-at-your-own-pace curriculum of essays, interviews, videos and journaling/homework assignments intending an understanding of the spectrum of Gift Economy or Ecology: Ideas and muse to get us thinking more imaginatively about our economy and the way we use our personal human currency (aka energy), and using money and energy as an expression of connection and love, and not transaction.
If–as you are experiencing the content–you would like to share your thoughts or ideas with me, I’d love to hear them! If there are a few of us, we can find a way for private sharing to connect us.
Thank you for being alive at this most energized time in human history. I<3 you.
 Happy Birthday to one of my greatest teachers, Dr. King.
with all my heart,
Becky

honoring the darkness

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dear ones, I want to honor the darkness today, this first day of 2017–the darkness that makes lifelight so bright. Ten years ago today we lost our twins. It was devastating. But these two little souls that were complete within me for only such a short time, were not meant to become lives that I wished and wanted, instead they came to give me an incredible gift: a blessing of life wisdom that I could only know by living through the loss my pregnancy.

We lost them on New Year’s Day–the holiday I love the most… the day so many of us celebrate collective optimism and hope, we are all rooting for our lives and each other with greater passion and possibility. The twins left me on my favorite day of the year, challenging most everything I believed about hope.

It was an experience that brought me literally to my knees. (Perhaps it is the times upon our knees that are the most significant to who we become?!)

I am sharing this with you, wishing not to cause you any pain, but because I want to honor these little souls on their 10-year anniversary and thank them for their brief stay with me. And because I want to honor the darknesses –the losses and pain–that you live with, too.

While they didn’t become children, they were something. Light. Energy. Love. Presense. Tiny miraculous gifts. Their being–and their ending– gifted me great lessons that I will carry with me as a torch in my darkness, for the rest of my life… these:

There are times in life when there are no words that can be said to reduce a person’s pain. There are times where the only thing that can be done is sacred listening, being present for someone when they grieve or carry great burden and pain is the greatest gift of friendship. No one could fix my loss. Not even the later joyful miracle of my son. It was a painful loss that happened and still, I carry their memory with me, with great love and gratitude.

They taught me to be a mindful guardian of the times when I should not say anything, but simply and deeply listen. They taught me there will be many times in life when I will not–and should not–find words to attempt to make things better for someone who is hurting… and that allowing space for not knowing what to say… space in silence… and hand holding… and hugging … and listening these are the most powerful love medicine of all.

These shimmers of light that the twins–those beautiful little beginnings… beings and endings–gave to me, helped me to take back my power of how I get to choose what I believe about this miraculous and painful world.

I honor you dear ones, and all our losses and pain. I am so sorry for the suffering us humans endure in this life… and I am grateful for it too, and to loss–my darkness–as it makes me carry a bright light with greater courage, to even share this pain –these trembling words–with you. We are not alone. Life longs to be with life, and I am here if ever you want to talk and just be heard.

I am rooting for you this 2017, and praying for our collective joy and transmutation of our suffering.

I wish all of us blessings and courage as we welcome this new year, with all its possibilities. I honor the darkness that makes the light much brighter.

with all my ❤
becky

we the people

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WE the People need each other, all of every one of us. We each have something meaningful to give. Together we are stronger and have greater possibilities because we are all here, alive, now.
We the People can make decisions that place and activate love over fear.
We the People can commit to reducing consumption of oil (i.e. carpooling, limiting/consolidating convenience driven car trips) –and ultimately evolve from oil towards bio-remediative sources of fuel helping the environment instead of depleting and contaminating it.
  We the People can support the beliefs of our Native American brothers and sisters. We can apologize for the atrocious ways of our ancestors.
 We the People in this present moment, can apologize for the past and the painful Holocaust that happened in the making of this Country.
 We the People can apologize to our African American brothers and sisters for the cruel and demeaning ways of our ancestors. We can hold gratitude to all those who suffered and those who lost their lives. We can learn from our past and not repeat it.
 We the People can apologize for the detrimental painful patterns of separatist behavior that still happens and oppresses all human beings, keeping us from our potential.
We the People can honor sacred burial grounds of all people. We can regard these lands with reverence regardless of our personal religious beliefs or our personal oil-consumption patterns/needs.
We the People can listen and respect opinions than differ from our own.
We the People can prioritize human lives, dignity and values over monetary profit.
We the People can honor, respect and acknowledge the Earth and the bountiful–yet finite–gifts she gives.
We the People can choose to no longer allow Pipelines to cut through our country, and propagate the old oil-driven story of US, We can demand companies expand and employ people and technologies that will help–not hurt–the environment and ultimately us humans.
We the People have the power to change our story and begin a new one that honors all people and the beautiful planet we are connected with and bound to.
We the People can regard human beings as potential medicine for the problems of our planet, while accepting culpability, and learning from our past.
We the People can believe that each of us has gifts to give in our lifetimes, important gifts that are needed and will make a difference.
We the People can believe there is a better way, and that NOW is the time for us to explore it together, in peace, with loving hearts listening ears, and not fists or force.
We the People are intelligent, capable and strong enough to hold the pain of not having all the answers, while simultaneously trusting the answers shall emerge and serve.
We the People can live forward in ways that do not inflict physical pain, intentional suffering, harm or death to any human.
We the People of this Earth can believe that together we can co-create the solutions we so desperately need and deserve.
amen. it is so.

I love all you people! Sharing these thoughts knowing this list is incomplete. These words come from my heart and prayers with my great love and hope for us… for humanity. I certainly cannot speak as “We the people”, but–in marrying my imaginings with my heart–I get energized to wonder what our world would be like, if we did indeed believe these as truths. I wonder… what would be possible for us? I also wonder, what are your “We the Peoples”?
  becky

from powerless to lovefull

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dear ones,

I have reached boiling– well breaking point, if I am honest. Past few days have been really rough and emotional. One foot in front of the other. I have felt so powerless.

But then I remembered loving go to words… “How can I be love in this moment?”

I’ve spent much thought to planning THIS week because I AM NOT powerless. I have a voice. I have a heart. I am creative. I have hands to reduce suffering. I matter, just like YOU do! I can do things that exemplify living democracy in my own life.

So here is my plan…
1. I plan to pray. Not for any outcome specific, but for love to rule, to protect and save us humans from ourselves.
2. I plan to cry to express the sadness in my heart, mind and body, around the injustices in North Dakota and though out our country–racial discrimination AND prioritization of money over human beings and water safety. Cry, cry cry it out, like a human hydrant flushing.
3. Celebrate Halloween with my incredible family and friends.
4. Call these numbers to try stop hurting our Native American Brothers and Sisters, to remind them of the Treaty of 1851 which issues full rights of ownership of land to Sioux. North Dakota Governor’s office: 701-328-2200 ; Morton County Sheriffs office 701-667-3330 ; the White House 202-456-1111.
5. Use hashtags (new to me) in all my NoDAPL posts to remind MSM (mainstream media) to cover both sides of the issue, with intensity and caliber this URGENT situation requires.
6. Vote for President.
7. Love and hug on my children as much as possible.
8. Make something beautiful and something extra delicious,
9. Do something kind for someone.
10. Respectfully listen to people whose opinions I do not understand.
11. Find more ways I can be of service to love.

That’s my plan. To take me from Powerless to Lovefull….. What is YOURS dear friends?I’d love to know.

Thank you for reading and sharing. I love you and I’m grateful we are alive right now, that WE are the ones who get to change and remake this incredible world of ours, now… together.

love always, love…
becky
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